I value beauty, as life would be very boring without it. I love looking at the beautiful things God has made. I value the beauty of nature such as in a multi-colored sky, and a vast ocean of many hues. I value beauty in variety such as colors of feathers on a bird or shapes of a leaf. It simply takes my breath away. I value the beauty in people and in their brokenness. We are all imperfect, and I love watching the beauty in the realization that we are made perfect in Christ. There is so much beauty in the world, so much beauty in love and in the way people create things. I marvel at the beauty of my brother’s combination of musical notes on his guitar to make a melody that brings me to tears. I see beauty in a recipe of a favorite dish, and how that taste of the flavor can mean so much to you. I find that God has given us the gift of beauty to make life worth living. We are humbled by God’s beauty, and through that we find the beauty within ourselves and within the work we make.
I find happiness in bringing people happiness by doing serving them. I value the unconditional service that is done out of love and kindness — resembling what Christ has done for us. When someone performs an act of service without expecting anything in return it warms my heart to do the same to others. It is a human condition. It is how God has designed us: to be servants of Him and of each other. When we serve one another, we are humbled and recognize the value of one another. I believe service gives a person a sense of purpose. I believe service can be done for yourself too, as you are treated by the happiness the person felt at that moment and can celebrate their joy. I love it when I see a smile that I had a part in making.
In love, you can find redemption. We read a book in my literature class of a murderer that is redeemed by love. The moment the character understood he could love and was loved gave him a sense of hope — this scene brought me to tear in class because I felt what it must’ve felt like to feel that hope and redemption. It is an unexplainable feeling that forces us to be moved whether we like it or not. It is a force. Yet the same feeling can hurt you. It was very difficult to move away from my family because I love them. But I have found a different kind of love with my friends here at Judson which has partially helped me overcome that hurt. Love forces you to change. It forces you to sacrifice. It forces you to give. It forces you to live. Christ’s love is unfathomable, and that is the kind of love that we need and seek. It is the unconditional love that we need to show other too. What a difference the value of love can make.
Faith is the biggest part of my life. Although, sometimes it doesn’t get enough attention, or rather, the attention it deserves. Since I was little I knew who Jesus was and accepted him into my heart at a very young age. I am incredibly lucky to have started my walk so young because it has helped guide a lot of important decisions in my life. My relationship with God is very personal and deep, and it’s changed so much since starting college. I don’t know where I would be without my faith but I know I probably wouldn’t be at Judson. I value my faith because although it in itself is not constant, I have a faith in a God that is constant and unchanging. Through all of my struggles and heartbreaks it’s so clear to me that God is present and he has a plan. Trusting in his plan is the only thing I have most days and I know one day his plan will lead me home.
A huge part of my life has been my relationships with other people. I grew up going to a summer camp and spending weeks and months away from my parents, and it was at these camps where I learned what true friendship looks like and how amazing it can be. Having a best friend who knows me inside and out is extremely important for me because it is so good to know I have someone who is always there for me to listen to me, go out shopping with me, and give me advice. Friendship is so incredibly important and spending time with people gives me a lot of joy. I often find myself sacrificing some of my work to make these connections and spend time with people because I find more worth in building those relationships with real human people than secluding myself to always work hard on homework. This isn’t to say that I don’t care about my schoolwork, I just feel like there is a balance I need to have in my life where I can be with people that I love and also do a job that I like. At the end of my life, I’d like people to talk about my impact on them as a human who cared about them and made them laugh who was also a cool designer.
My dad and I are very similar. We’re sarcastic and funny and sometimes we go too far. But my relationship with my dad is really special to me. Every time I come home for the weekend or a break and my dad and I hangout we crack a lot of jokes and make each other laugh so much that we started calling ourselves “The Ol’ Comedy Team.” I think my humor is such a huge part of my life because of my dad. I grew up watching alot of comedians like Jim Gaffigan, Brian Regan, Jerry Seinfeld, and John Mulaney and I just find so much worth in making people laugh. I think because I was kind of insecure growing up I thought I had nothing really going for me so I learned how to be funny. I remember always making friends when I was little because I said something funny in class or would make a lot of witty comments. This was how I related to people and it’s sort of just become who I am now. There was a period in my life however where my humor was just really mean and offensive, but I’m better now and try to be more conscious of the things I say because I know some people just don’t think the way I do. Anyway, I believe humor can bring people together, and my closest friends are some of the funniest people I know. Having one of those laughs where I can’t breathe and my stomach hurts is one of the best feelings in the world. Humor is just another way I make connections with people.